FEMME FATALE :Neurosis

HELLO HEAVEN

2012-03-04T10:56:00.000-08:00

Hello Heaven! You are a tunnel lined with yellow lights on a dark nite , i couldn't be happier than right now.

You showed me my tomorrow beside a box of matches a welcome threatening stir ,my hopes of being stolen might just ring true depends who you prefer.
But if it’s true you’re gonna run away tell me where, i'll meet you there.
Am I snapping the excitement If I pack away the laughter and tell you how it feels

"the day after you stole my heart, everything i touched told me it would be better shared with you"

And you're hiding in my soup, and the book reveals your face, and there's a splashing in my eyelids
the concentration continually breaks i did request the mark you cast didn't heal as fast. I hear your vioce in silences, will the teasing of the fire be followed by the thud?

You make me want to be a better person , a new and version of myself , the power of your love has changed me in a way that i never though it was possible.
You arrived in the perfect moment of my life , just exactly when u needed to come , i found you and now i don't want to ever let you go.

I love you so much amor... so much.
I can't wait to see and feel what the future holds for us, and i am positive that i want my present and my future by your side, because with you i got to finally understand many things that i never did before.

TE AMO.

No, i can't forget I'm screaming.

2012-02-08T19:14:00.000-08:00

you must be a sun giving light somewhere...
you must be a sun giving life everywhere...

something tells me, thats why you are away, hug me with your light, hug me before i go away.

On the other side of darkness, far away there shines a light,
A light to end all sorrow,
A light to be ever free,
A light for a new tomorrow
A light for you and me

2012-01-25T01:45:00.000-08:00

SEDUCE MY MIND AND YOU CAN HAVE MY BODY , FIND MY SOUL AND I'M YOURS FOREVER.

Quiero tu alma.

2012-01-20T01:34:00.001-08:00

Escribi esto en el 2008 es uno de mis ensayos preferidos, y hasta ahora decidí publicarlo.

Amor, love , liebe, no importa cómo le llamen a final de cuentas es algo que todos sentimos y experimentamos cuando menos una vez en la vida.

Amor al sexo, amor al trabajo, amor a la comida, amor a uno mismo, al final es amor. Pero en este texto me limitare a hablar de ese tipo de amor al que todos sufrimos gozamos o maldecimos, el amor ese que nos hace creer o volar incluso idealizar al otro, (pero de eso de la idealización hablare más tarde)

Pero bueno que es el amor?

Si me limito a la buena explicación que mis amados filósofos me han dado puedo mostrarles que amor es esto

“Nietzsche dice que cuando amamos juntamos todas las mejores propiedades de las cosas más maravillosas y perfectas que consideramos en el mundo, y como estas son similares con el objeto es considerado como esa cosa maravillosa, ese algo perfecto.”

Ohh el buen NIETZSCHE siempre tuvo razón en acercar al amor a ese atributo perfecto, si así es perfección es amor, y es que cuando nos “enamoramos” o creemos hacerlo vemos ah esa alguien como la obra maestra si le atribuimos tantas características buenas que pensamos que eso es lo mejor que los dioses pudieron haber creado. Pero bien Nietzsche decía y con cierta acertividad solo así lo creemos solo así queremos creer que ese amor que esa persona ideal existe.

Pero pensándolo mejor me hago este gran cuestionamiento ¿en realidad ese amor esa otra persona, esa llamada alma gemela realmente existe?

O solo es una idealización que para nuestro ser es mejor creer?

Ahora veamos cual la explicación biológica de lo que es llamado amor, lo que nuestros tan dedicados psiquíatras se han afanado tanto en profesar y explicar de manera tan tajante y formal.

Porque así es ellos solo nos brindan una idea fría y precisa de lo que es el amor.

“Una vez encontrada la persona más atractiva, el sistema nervioso se pone en marcha y se produce una descarga de feniletilamina, un compuesto de la familia de las anfetaminas que desata la pasión. Ella es la responsable de producir la excitación, la que hace que se produzca la dopamina, que es el neurotransmisor relacionado con el placer y la recompensa” (instituto de psiquiatría )

Esto antes citado tiene más coherencia no?

Pues claro todo ese coctel de drogas al activarse con esa persona deseada desata un frenesí de adrenalina que nos produce una placentera descarga de bienestar y bum! Ahí está lo eh encontrado me eh enamorado!

Y es que con tantas sensaciones placenteras es difícil resistirse no? Hasta el más débil cae rendido a este placer químico que se ha encontrado, es a partir en este momento cuando nuestro estimado y sobrevalorado concepto del amor nos da dos vertientes: el amor “verdadero” o solo una ilusión.

Y con mi experiencia hasta ente entonces puedo incluir que ese amor ilusorio puede pasar muchas veces en nuestras vidas. Pero qué fácil es caer en manos de esto muchas veces, pero como no hacerlo si somos como un borrego con los ojos cegados ante tanta brillantez ilusoria.

De alguien alguna vez escuche peculiar frase “el amor no se acaba, solo cambia de persona” y bien tenía razón este ente al decirlo.

A lo largo de nuestra vida ese amor siempre existirá y decir esta palabra amor me refiero meramente por el momento, al amor hacia otra persona, ese que siempre existirá que brincara de persona a persona con respecto a nuestra experiencia en la vida. Ah veces dura a veces no tanto a veces perdura por años ah veces solo por meses y porque no…. Por días, claro! Podemos amar solo un día, cuando esa sensación de felicidad palpita dentro de nuestro ser y queremos gritar queremos decir “te amo” hacia la persona que tenemos enfrente de nosotros.

Y no juzgo hacia esas actitudes ya que cada uno de nosotros somos responsable y contamos con ese tan no ah veces tomado en cuenta libre albedrio que da la entera libertad de volar nuestros pensamientos y por ende nuestra conducta hacia donde nosotros queramos, así que más da, qué más da si en un día, en una hora, en un solo segundo, queremos amar. No importa al fin y al cabo seremos los únicos responsables de esa consecuencia gratificante o tal vez no grata.

Puedo decir que a lo largo de esta locura que llamamos vida, me eh encontrado en ese camino tantas veces, y puedo decir que he llegado a la conclusión que no queda más que disfrutarlo tantas veces como pueda suceder y no atormentar a nuestra mentes y nuestro ser , pensando en que manera suceda y como sucede.

Pero de una manera pienso fielmente que hay una persona un ser que te complementara, que te entenderá, que siempre será esa persona que encontraras cuando tu alma y tu ser se encuentren sin rumbo. Puedes estar con alguien mas y sentirlo si así bien es el amor libre, sin restricción ni ataduras solo es amor y solo uno mismo sabe lo que sucede dentro de tu mente y tu corazón. Corazón claro ese es nuestro simbolismo de amor.

Así que si pienso de manera les podre decir… ¿amor? De eso solo tú y nadie más que tú lo sabes, y depende de ti vivirlo disfrutarlo y gozarlo de la manera en la que mejor te parezca.

GABRIELA.

“he olvidado lo que quería y mi pensamiento incorpóreo regresa a la locura temporal”

I know I'm mad I've always been mad , i know i've been mad most of the time.

2012-01-13T00:21:00.000-08:00

I know I'm mad I've always been mad , i know i've been mad most of the time.

Someone just died, but I’m alive and yet without a soul. I have nothing but a transparent body within which transparent doves fling themselves upon a transparent dagger held by a transparent hand. I see effort in all its beauty, real effort that cannot be measured by anything, just before the appearance of the last star. The body I inhabit like a hut and on lease detests the soul that I used to have and that stays afloat in the distance. The time has come to be done with this proverbial duality that has been blamed on me so much. Gone is the time when the turbulence in lightless and ringless eyes welled up from pools of color. There is neither red nor blue any longer. The unanimous red-blue fades out in turn like a robin refbreast in the hedges of neglect. Someone just dies--neither I nor you exactly, nor they, but all of us, except for me who survives in many ways: for instance, I’m still cold. Enough of that. Fire! Fire! Or stones for me to cleave, or birds for me to follow, or corsets for me to lace tightly around dead women’s waists, and so to make them come back to life and love me with their tiring hair and their chastened look! Fire, so we don’t die for brandied plums, fire so the Italian straw hat won’t be just a play! Hello, lawn! Hello, rain! I’m the unreal breath of this garden. The black crown set on my head is a cry of migrating crows because until now there were only those buried alive, just a few of them, and now I’m the first of the aired dead. But I have a body not to be done away with, to compel reptiles to admire me. Bloody hands, mistletoe eyes, a mouth of dead leaves and glass (the dead leaves stir underneath the glass; they aren’t as red as you might think when indifference lays bare its voracious techniqes), hands to gather you, miniscule thyme of my dreams, rosemary of my extreme pallor. I have no more shadow either. Ah, my shadow, dear shadow. I have to write a long letter to that now lost shadow. I’ll begin by: My dear shadow. Shadow, my dearest. You see. There is no more sun. There is but one tropic out of two. No more than one man out of a thousand. No more than one woman out of the absence of thought which characterizes in pure black this damned age. That woman holds a bouquet of everlastings in the shape of my blood.

"In a mad world, only the mad are sane."

i feel like crystal clear

2011-12-31T01:30:00.000-08:00

I have forgiven mistakes that were unforgivable, I have tried to replace those who were unreplaceable and tried to forget those who were unforgettable.

I have done things on impulse. I have been let down by those whom I thought would never let me down but i have also let others down.

I have laughed when It was almost impossible to laugh. I have held someone to protect them. I have made life long friends, I’ve loved and been loved. I have screamed and jumped for joy, i have lived on love and made eternal promises of love.

I have fallen many times. I have cried while listening to music and also when looking at photos. I have called someone just to hear their voice. I have fallen in love with a smile.

I have also thought I was going to die from loosing someone special and I did loose them! but I lived! and I still live!

I don’t allow life to pass me by and neither should you!
Live! What is really good is to fight with determination, embrace life and live it with passion! Loose your battles with class and dare to win because.. "the world belongs to those who dare and live, Life is worth too much to be insignificant…”

2011

ALUMBRAME

2011-12-25T23:39:00.000-08:00

No, do not try to apologize,do not play to insist, excuses existed before you. No, don't look at me like before, do not talk in plural, rhetoric is your most lethal weapon. I'm gonna ask you to not come back I still feel that you hurt deep inside.. At your age you don't even know what it's like to break someone's heart Is not possible to live with such a venom, the hope your love gave me No one else gave it to me before i swear. You can not devote your soul to accumulate attempts , it weighs more the anger than the cement... I hope you do not expect me to wait after my 26 .... my patience is completely gone , I'm looking without looking to see if you get mad and leave..

“The more you let yourself go, the less others let you go”

DREAM MACHINE

2011-12-10T00:13:00.000-08:00

“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”.

JACK KEROUAC.

do you like passion?

follow your feelings, is not a matter of being hedonistic, it's a matter of feeling,

having the joy of taking the decisions you feel the ones that make you having that sensation of pleasure...

We are all scare of passion , we are all scare of desire.

Enjoy being disturbed by those thoughts and let you mind take over,

Enjoy the journey.

MIND.SOUL.BODY

PSY AND POETRY

2011-10-21T00:38:00.000-07:00

Autour de moi

Je ne vois pas

Qui sont les anges

Sûrement pas moi

Encore une fois

Je suis cassée

Encore une fois

Je n'y crois pas

I'm Me!
Can you dig it.
My meat is real,
My hands;how they move
balanced like little demons,
My hair: so twined and writhing,
The skin of my face; pinch the cheeks,
My flaming sword tongue,
spraying verbal fire-flys
I'm real.
I'm human
But I'm not an ordinary man
No No No

What are you doing here?
What do you want?
Is it music?
We can play music.
But you want more.
You want something and someone new.

Am I right?
Of course I am.
You want ecstasy
Desire and dreams.
Things not exactly what they seem.
I lead you this way, he pulls that way.
I'm not singing to an imaginary girl.
I'm talking to you, my self.
Let's recreate the world.
The palace of conception is burning.
Look. See it burn.
Bask in the warm hot coals.
Look. See it burn.
Bask in the warm hot coals.

You're too young to be old
You don't need to be told
You want to see things as they are.
You know exactly what I do
Everything.

QUE LAS LAGRIMAS DE ESTA NOCHE SE CONVIERTAN EN EL INICIO DE UNA NUEVA ERA

2011-09-23T00:01:00.000-07:00

She was not afraid of difficulty , she was afraid of the obligation of having to choose path , choosing a path it meant to lose others.

En nuestra vida siempre llega un momento cumbre, ese momento que marca la diferencia de una era , de una era que nos hace RENACER, un cambio , que va a marcarnos para siempre el antes y el despues.
Cuesta trabajo dejar el confort , el confort vanal, ese es el peor a veces cuando nuestro ser no esta en plenitud , las personas encontramos algo para poder sobrellevar nuestro pesar y hacernos sentir que estamos bien.
Me siento que llegue a un momento el que debo de crecer espiritual , alimentar mi alma, alimentar mi ser, sentir mis emociones positivas y convertirlas en mi mejor arma, en mi mejor cualidad, en que debo sonreir, en el que debo apreciar la belleza del mundo a mi alrededor sin sentir la nostalgia que me produce el verlas.
Quiero sentirme feliz conmigo misma, ABRAZAR MI SOLEDAD y HACERLA MI MEJOR CUALIDAD , de la cual pueda aprender de mis errores , de mis errores conmigo misma de esos errores que han afectado mi vida y jamas cometerlos, de poder sentarme a ver el atardecer sin pensar en nadie mas que en la felicidad que me produce ver el sol ocultarse y la llegada de la noche.
Quiero dejar de poner parches en mis heridas y curarlas por completo yo misma, sin la necesidad de buscar a nadie que las cure, necesito sentir el placer de las cosas no materiales si no de la espiritualidad sana , de la de felicidad que me produzco a mi misma por el solo hecho de sentirme PLENA , plena por estar en paz con mi ser , en esa paz que no necesitas de nada ni nadie mas que tu fortaleza interna de ti.
Un cambio espiritual para ser UNA MEJOR MUJER , una feliz , contenta que solo sonrie que no sabe ni entiende de tristesa.
Quiero recuperar mi sonrisa , esa sonrisa pura que tuve tiempo atras y que existia sin ningun hecho y sin ninguna persona...
No saber de nada mas que de mi bienestar espiritual.
AMATE A TI MISMO LO SUFICENTE PARA SABER CUANDO DEJAR ESE CAMINO LLENO DE ESPINAS Y ENCONTRAR EL LLENO DE FLORES.

GABRIELA.

Ir a la lucha con determinación

abrazar la vida y vivir con pasión.

Perder con clase y vencer con osadía,

por que el mundo pertenece a quien se atreve

y la vida es mucho más para ser una insignificante....

let me put a show for you tigger

2011-09-22T21:52:00.000-07:00

THE TRANCE DANCE EXPERIENCE IS BECOMING ONE WITH THE MUSIC AND ONE WITH THE DANCE , SO YOU JUST GO BEYOND THOUGHT BEYOND MIND YOU ARE JUST ONE WITH THE MOMENT THROUGH THE DANCE AND THROUGH THE MUSIC , THAT IS THE DANCE-TRANCE EXPERIENCE.
Goa Gil.

POWER - LIGHT- GUIDE

Magic , i do believe in it , some people have it some people do not.

however not all see and feel the magic the same .

i feel it in love

I'm feeling it

2011-08-22T23:02:00.000-07:00

Don't close that door, don't walk away
Don't shut your eyes, you can hear me say
I love you now more than everyday
It's okay

Displacement

2011-08-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

I WAS DREAMING AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE HERE , THEN I REALIZED I WAS ACTUALLY AWAKE, SO WRONG , SO WRONG

Caprice

2011-07-26T01:35:00.000-07:00

HE IS PART OF ONE THE PEOPLE I REALLY LIKE ,THAT KIND OF PEOPLE THAT MAKE ME FEEL "THAT THING"

Misunderstood by many, loved by some many more.

" I MIGHT NOT BE HANDSOME BUT WHEN WOMEN HEAR ME PLAY THEY COME CRAWLING TO MY FEET"

One night in 1713 i dreamed i had made a pact with the Devil and was on my orders. Everything went wonderfully well, all my desires were more than anticipated and satisfied by my new servant. It happened that at one point, I gave my violin and challenged him to play for me a romantic piece. My surprise was great when I heard him play, with great courage and intelligence, a sonata so unusual and romantic like never before heard. That was my wonder, ecstasy and delight that I was stunned and violent emotion aroused me. Immediately I took my violin wishing to remember at least part of what had just heard, but in vain. The sonata I wrote then is, by far the best I’ve ever written and still call it “The Devil’s Sonata”, but it was so inferior to what he had heard in the dream I wish I had my violin break into pieces and give up music forever. Nicolo Paganini

When i hear him playing i feel every nerve of my senses waking up hypnotized by his incredible art, an ecstasy that makes each minute better, an ecstasy that only a few could feel.

24 CAPRICES..
HOW MANY DO YOU HAVE?

Escuchar

FREE CHOICE

2011-07-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

ENTENDIMIENTO ESO ES TODO
Y SI ESTAS EN ALGUN LUGAR POR AHI, TAN SOLO NECESITO ENCONTRARTE
LA MAGIA DE LA VIDA

LOVE ME LIKE A REPTILE BABE

2011-07-07T23:17:00.000-07:00

“I don't understand people who believe that if you ignore something, it'll go away. That's completely wrong - if it's ignored it gathers strength. Europe ignored Hitler for twenty years. As a result he slaughtered a quarter of the world!”

do me with your guitar of love

It will always be there

2011-07-05T10:31:00.000-07:00

SUELTALO YA!

2011-07-02T03:05:00.000-07:00

Pudiera agarrar y ponerme a escribir cosas mas normales menos sensitivas,
pero simplemente he agarrado el teclado sin poder parar si poder si quiera pensar lo que redacto talvez es bueno de hecho lo es, por que de mi alma puede salir todo lo que cohabita y se mezcla en ella.
Hoy es una de esas noches si , esas noches a las cuales les podria poner nombre pero no tengo en la cabeza el poder simplificarlas para que tengan un adjetivo coherente .
A veces tengo miedo un chingo de miedo , que ni yo lo puedo explicar, busco esa droga que me pueda ayudar a sentir la emocion pasar y poder aniquilarla.
Quisiera enterlo , quisiera enterme , hay veces que pienso que siempre sera asi , no he podido encontrar el punto donde pueda yo explicarme como es que todo sucedio , si digo bien las personas nacemos normales, sin traumas, sin miedos, sin paranoias , sin ningun tipo de retencion hacia nada , como un simple hecho que a lo mejor creemos aislado puede llegar a alterar tu psique?.
¿En que manera?
¿Como lo remedias?
Me disgusta de gran manera escuchar "pero si tu eres psicologa, tu deberias saber eso, si tu eres psicologa tu no puedes ponerte asi de esa manera"
Y resulta que nada, aun sabiendo las mejores teorias del inconsiente de Freud, el todo del Gestalt, el Humanismo de Maslow y un sin fin de los mejores test psicologicos tu aun estas en el limbo.
Cuando menos lo espera siempre regresa, creo que en verdad le gusta estar conmigo,
Y JURO QUE TRATO, LO MAS QUE PUEDO , LO INTENTO

i feel enchanted by the magic of the moon tonight

2011-06-15T21:43:00.000-07:00

The moon , the moon the moon ,

always have this magic that make me feel this way, is absolutely amazing , every time i see and feel the moonlight i feel enchanted by it's magical power that takes me all to of these waves of events that i have felt , and some other ones that i am about to feel too.

It's like to embrace a lot of beautiful sensations in one, i like to spend hours right in front of it , admiring it's beauty and feeling it's magic.
"YOU HAVE SEEN IT ALL "

GESTALT

2011-06-13T11:53:00.000-07:00

Yo soy YO

Tú eres Tú.

Yo no estoy en este mundo para cumplir tus expectativas

Tú no estás en este mundo para cumplir las mías.

Tú eres Tú

Yo soy Yo.

Si en algún momento o en algún punto nos encontramos

Será maravilloso

Si no, no puede remediarse.

DE ORIGEN ONIRICO

2011-05-26T21:22:00.000-07:00

-
-: What are we gonna do? Talk about me sex life?
Psychiatrist: Oh, no. I'm going to show you some slides and you're going to tell me what you think about them. Alright?
-: Jolly good. Do you know anything about dreams?
Psychiatrist: Something, yes.
-: Do you know what they mean?
Psychiatrist: Perhaps. Are you concerned about something?
-: Oh, no, no... not concerned really. But I've been having this very nasty dream. Very nasty.
Psychiatrist: Now, each of these slides needs a reply from somebody in the picture. You tell me what you think the person would say. Alright?
-: Righty-right.

about to get the insight

2011-05-25T08:06:00.000-07:00

IT IS LIKE A PRESENCE IS IN MY DREAMS

2011-05-08T23:57:00.000-07:00

"Real magic is about connections that most people never see

Unlooked for bends in space and time

Reflectance, for example

Glass, metal, even water

He said this would capture and bend light, and offer you a window through space"

would you confess now?

Magical

everyone dream it differently,

she still lives inside of her

the beginning of all..

possibly it means that i can too

I carry with me the prism of your eyes inside of my astronaut helmet

every night below the milky way is an eternity, however i know i find it again.

"The paranoic critical activity makes the world of delirium pass onto the plane of reality"

HYPNOSIS

2011-04-04T22:50:00.000-07:00

A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences.

An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.

A loss of interest in judging other people.

A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of other.

A loss of interest in conflict.

A loss of the ability to worry.

Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.

Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.

An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen

"From a thought to a reality, From a Vibration to a Manifestation. From the beginning to the never ending"

Crying Lightning

2011-03-31T09:42:00.000-07:00

BEAUTY

2011-03-12T13:57:00.000-08:00

I CAN BREATHE IT..

I would love some people could see the world with the same eyes i do , then they could see through me , that would be some much fun.

When i am walking around in some places i get so much ecstasy from thinking about all the beauty the senses are able to perceive ,

Every color, scent, texture , sound, are part all the amazing things that the universe has,

if we just take some time and stop we can realize all these wonderful things ,

That's what life is about, to find the beauty in every event of our journey.

Beauty only exists in perception

Intentar remediar esto que me vuelve loca

2011-03-03T08:27:00.001-08:00

IT TAKES A DIRTY MIND TO UNDERSTAND A DIRTY MIND

2011-02-19T12:11:00.000-08:00

My best friend my loyal partner i decided to let you go, but you always come back every time, you are the best did you know that?
Early in the morning, smooth by the afternoon or very late at night.. does not really matter...

I always find you no matter what.
Still are some crumbs on the bed, they are like those undesirable things that in one way on another end up being desirable.

WEARINESS

Probably the smoke penetrates in one each of the ambiguous thoughts and makes them disperse and stay in small tiny particles that over hours, days or if i get lucky in months they get back together

"The difference between false memories and true ones is the same as for jewels: it is always the false ones that look the most real, the most brilliant"
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TE PARECES TANTO A MI QUE NO PUEDES ENGAÑARME

2011-01-30T13:14:00.000-08:00

LIFE HAS A REASON

RAVE SOUND & SENSATION

F-U-S-I-O-N

2011-01-18T20:49:00.000-08:00

WHY DON'T WE TAKE A HAMMER AND DESTROY EVERYTHING AROUND?

Dig in my mind let's see what u can find or do you wanna try just a little dose darling? it won't hurt you i swear

Is better to participate than being a spectator.

Because if you do not participate you can not feel it.

SMOOTH MOVES LIKE A PRUDENT FELINE

Once upon a time , once upon a time...

There are times when you do not need an invitation for it.

COME UNDONE

2011-01-10T21:22:00.000-08:00

IT FEELS LIKE A RAIN OF STARS..

LITTLE BY LITTLE EVERY EACH OF THEM ARE GIVING THE STRANGE BUT PLEASANT FEELING

YOU BETTER HOLD THE RESET BUTTON STRONGLY, AND DO NOT HESITATE

whatever works

Before the sunrise comes, i go back to the natural life.

addicted to revenge and addicted to my addictions

When everything is said and done
Still looking for answers, if only one
Turn my back, the urge has gone
Left with no reason, we come undone

UTOPIA

2011-01-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.

You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.

Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”

Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.

Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.

Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

BY PAULO COELHO

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

MIS IDEAS... IDEAS... IDEAS

2010-12-26T13:22:00.000-08:00

"Poco a poco me siento mas yo misma"

Empezare mí escrito sin un titulo porque en este momento en mi cabeza logran reposar tantas ideas y pensamientos, que es difícil definirlos todos de una sola vez para hacer un titulo a mi compilación de pensamientos.

Amor, amore, love , liebe, no importa cómo le llamen a final de cuentas es algo que todos sentimos y experimentamos cuando menos una vez en la vida.

Amor al sexo, amor al trabajo, amor a la comida, amor a uno mismo, al final es amor. Pero en este ahora me limitare a hablar de ese tipo de amor al que todos sufrimos gozamos o maldecimos, el amor ese que nos hace creer o volar incluso idealizar al otro, (pero de eso de la idealización hablare más tarde)

Pero bueno ¿que es el amor?

Si me limito a la buena explicación que mis amados filósofos me han dado puedo mostrarles que amor es esto:

Ohh el buen NIETZSCHE siempre tuvo razón en acercar al amor a ese atributo perfecto, si así es perfección es amor, y es que cuando nos “enamoramos” o creemos hacerlo vemos a esa alguien como la obra maestra si le atribuimos tantas características buenas que pensamos que eso es lo mejor que los dioses pudieron haber creado. Pero bien Nietzsche decía y con cierta acertividad solo así lo creemos solo así queremos creer que ese amor que esa persona ideal existe.

Pero pensándolo mejor me hago este gran cuestionamiento ¿en realidad ese amor esa otra persona, esa llamada alma gemela realmente existe?

O solo es una idealización que para nuestro ser es mejor creer?

Ahora veamos cual la explicación biológica de lo que es llamado amor, lo que nuestros tan dedicados psiquíatras se han afanado tanto en profesar y explicar de manera tan tajante y formal.

Porque así es ellos solo nos brindan una idea fría y precisa de lo que es el amor.

Esto antes citado tiene más coherencia no?

Pues claro todo ese coctel de drogas al activarse con esa persona deseada desata un frenesí de adrenalina que nos produce una placentera descarga de bienestar y bum! Ahí está lo eh encontrado me he enamorado!

De alguien alguna vez escuche peculiar frase “el amor no se acaba, solo cambia de persona” y bien tenía razón este ente al decirlo.

A lo largo de nuestra vida ese amor siempre existirá y decir esta palabra amor me refiero meramente por el momento, al amor hacia otra persona, ese que siempre existirá que brincara de persona a persona con respecto a nuestra experiencia en la vida. A veces dura, a veces no tanto a veces perdura por años a veces solo por meses y porque no…. Por días, claro! Podemos amar solo un día, cuando esa sensación de felicidad palpita dentro de nuestro ser y queremos gritar queremos decir “te amo” hacia la persona que tenemos enfrente de nosotros.

Y no juzgo hacia esas actitudes ya que cada uno de nosotros somos responsable y contamos con ese tan no a veces tomado en cuenta libre albedrio que da la entera libertad de volar nuestros pensamientos y por ende nuestra conducta hacia donde nosotros queramos, así que más da, qué más da si en un día, en una hora, en un solo segundo, queremos amar. No importa al fin y al cabo seremos los únicos responsables de esa consecuencia gratificante o tal vez no grata.

Puedo decir de manera personal que a lo largo de esta locura que llamamos vida, me he encontrado en ese camino tantas veces, y puedo decir que he llegado a la conclusión que no queda más que disfrutarlo tantas veces como pueda suceder y no atormentar a nuestra mentes y nuestro ser , pensando en que manera suceda y como sucede.

Así que si pienso de manera les podre decir… ¿amor? De eso solo tú y nadie más que tú lo sabes, y depende de ti vivirlo disfrutarlo y gozarlo de la manera en la que mejor te parezca.

“he olvidado lo que quería y mi pensamiento incorpóreo regresa a la locura temporal”

work in process

2010-12-09T12:49:00.000-08:00

ACTING OUT OF FEAR..
those reactions,
decisions adapted to that frenzy..
sometimes we discover something we did not even know it was there inside of ourselves
sometimes it feels great sometimes it feels awful

I’ll be the garden, you’ll be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow

Whatever we put out in the Universe is what comes back to us.

2010-11-24T00:03:00.000-08:00

If what we want is Happiness, Peace, Love, Friendship...Then we should BE Happy, Peaceful, Loving and a True Friend.

I don't give a flying fuck what all of you haters think about me, in fact all of you make me stronger,and a better person, isn't my fault i'm Gorgeous, smart, SUCCESSFUL, WANTED, if that bothers you is your problem not mine, but i can't and won't stop going higher because of the jealousy and envy all you feel about me.

I know i'm he best and you are not but you have to live with that..

From my part you won't get anything bad, only positives vibes and L-O-V-E because that's the type of person i am! so GOOD LUCK!:D

HEAVEN

2010-11-08T23:39:00.001-08:00

YOU GOT TO FUCKING OPEN YOUR MIND.............
i have an addiction, and seems i can not get enough of my drog
how??? how??? how?? how???

CHEWING ON PEARLS

2010-10-21T22:02:00.000-07:00

when i love , i do it hard

when i love , i do not think i just feel

when i love , i feel pleased, so then i try my hardest to make you feel the same,

when i love , you have me, you own me , you posses me

when i love , i give you my worst

when i love i give you my best

when i love i feel in a frenzy 100 porcent of time

when i love you are my time

i have forgotten what i wanted and now my
disembodied thought goes back to the temporary insanity

this is how it is and how it has been

2010-10-15T13:04:00.000-07:00

DIVE IN A RAIN OF LOVE ,
WHEN MY DREAMS START TO GO AND MY FEELINGS WILL GROW
INTO THE SKY ABOVE
I LEAVE MY FEARS DOWN BELOW AND I WAN YOU TO GO

TODO DEPENDE DE......

onde day i will be the happiest mommy

2010-10-06T20:56:00.000-07:00

the peace of an angel

the hedonism came back

2010-09-26T13:01:00.000-07:00

An extremist cat

i'm a lover and i am a fighter

i get angry easily but i'm working on it

i party, sleep and think too much but i get my shit done

i have a weakness for sweet talkers, but i am learning and enforcing my boundaries

i don't let many people in, but once they are in they are there forever

i am strong and independent, and i have been broken

but never shattered.

Mi MEXICO

2010-09-13T13:11:00.000-07:00

B-i-c-e-n-t-e-n-a-r--i-o

200 años de ser "libres" por todos lados se encuentra este adjetivo la libertad, oh si la libertad!, pero el realidad lo somos, creo que no.

Aun asi en los ultimos dias, he llegado a percibir y sentir la inigualable belleza de mi Mexico lindo y querido, y es que es increible, sus colores y es que si, en todas sus variedades es algo que simplemente me fasina.

Caminando por las calles del centro historico logro percibir a mi gente que me atreveria a decir que es de las mas cordiales, siempre sonriendo, y aunque vengan adversidades siempre logramos si bien no estar excelente pues darle una buena cara a esta situaciones.

Que puedo decir, amo mi pais su belleza en cada aspecto y su cultura, esta cultura de gente guerrera que tras una "conquista" aun asi decidio y persistio en conservarse tal y como es.

the inside and the outside...

2010-09-06T20:53:00.000-07:00

how long can you keep it with you?

i do not think that i can for so long,

however in this silence i am free.............

so many ideas, so many of so many,

and at the end a whole lot of nothing..

nothing wich is something,

contradictions, what happen when you contradict yourself?

how do you get there?

in wich moment your ideas go opposite with other ideas?

i think i am going to go faster

"Everyone takes the limits of his own vision for the limits of the world"

inside

2010-09-04T12:32:00.000-07:00

I AM ME....

2010-08-25T13:47:00.000-07:00

In all the world,
there is no one else exactly like me -
everything that comes out of me is authentically mine,
because I alone choose it - I own everything about me - my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions,
whether they be to others or to myself -
I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears -
I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me - by so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts -
I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me,
and other aspects that I do not know -
but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,
I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me -

"However I look and sound, whatever I say and do,
and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me"
If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought and felt turned out to be unfitting, I can discard that which I feel is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded
I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do.
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive,
and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me -
I own me, and therefore I can engineer me -

I am me &
I AM OKAY

:) un cambio

2010-08-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

Hay demasiadas cosas por delante, lo que sucede sucede, y no se pueden retrasar , posponer las decisiones del universo o como sea que tu le llames,

vive el momento que es solo un momento ya sea de tristesa , alegria o incertidumbre, pero trata de sacarle el maximo de positividad de ese preciso momento, no es tan dificil, mientras te llenes a ti mismo de cosas positivas , todo estara bien, buena cara a los dias dificiles, por que al final de eso , son solo dias , ratos , la vida es increible y nos brinda demasiadas cosas , como para solo regozijarnos en las negativas.

"No es artista el que pinta, si no el que es capaz de hacer de su vida un arte"

EVERYTHING COUNTS

2010-07-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

It's funny how all the events in life are all connected,

one thing that happens in your life leads you to another one,

it's like one little story, we are living a script that has been already written, with thousands and thousands of caracters that make something, a difference in your life, they all fit together to make the story have sense, you might not pay attention but all those diferent connectors are there, since the person that sold you the clothes you are wearing right now, untill that soul that marks your life forever....

Every smell, flavor, pain, vision, enjoyment, sound, that you have experienced in your journey of life , has been there for a reason.

take a little time to look back and you will why...

to much to loose , or win?

2010-07-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

would be nice to know it..
however if i do not try i will never know it.

Summer has arrived... fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars

2010-05-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

All the universe in one grain of sand,

the summer has arrived.. and with it so many new things, i feel like a snake changing it's skin... and i have a repulsion to snakes,

however my skin is changing too.. i'm going into the same process of becoming something new, and now that i think about it, is very ironical...

what's what it makes it? how can u know when it happens?

i miss you, like the night without stars,

like you miss a beautiful morning,

being without you i swear to god that it hurts,

i miss you when i walk, when i cry ,when i laugh, when the sun shines,when is very cold,

because i feel you like something very mine.

i miss you like the trees miss the autumn,

in those nights when i can't sleep, you don't even know how much i miss you

i miss you in every step that i feel lonely,

in every moment that i am living day by day,

i am suffering because i miss you,

i miss you when the rainbow starts giving it's colors

i miss you with all your virtues and your mistakes,

for whatever reason you want, i don't know but i miss you.

so beautiful , so dangerous...

19 Ways to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity.

2010-04-27T17:46:00.000-07:00

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a
Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.

2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.

3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want
Fries with that.

4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In-Box."

5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.

6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Smuggling Diamonds

7. Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With The Prophecy."

8. Don't use any punctuation

9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.

10. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.

11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."

12. Sing Along At The Opera.

13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme

14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play tropical Sounds All Day.

15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their
Party Because You're Not In The Mood.

16. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.

17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream "I Won!, I Won!"

18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking lot,Yelling
"Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!"

19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner. "Due To The Economy, We Are Going To
Have To Let One Of You Go."

thanks to Jessica Carby for giving me this...

going higher

2010-04-20T22:06:00.000-07:00

this post in particular has an special dedication to one truly friend,, he asked me to write tonight so here it goes....

the most simple things in life are those that count and love the most
fasinated that is how i am now, overloaded could be also a good adjective to describe my state of mind, at this moment

i need to be cautious otherwise some of my words tonigh might be taken wrong..

wich i really do not care if that happens..

im keen observer of the strange human behaviour , there is nothing else in this world that i could enjoy the most than observing and analizing , is a quality that i have got without really wanting it, must be a talent i think, and i love it.

i always see "this" and "that"... then i start to wonder! yes i wonder some people will never imagine whats behind of this tiny little person that i seem to be, but i'm always overlooking , i'm glad that i do because exactly for that quality that i have, i'm able to figure out all those things in my head, those little bugs that are always hunting me, and asking me more more and more.

i'm always hungry for knowing more and more and when i satisfy that need i get pleased...

excited-scared-ambiguos-positive-energetic

And how do you feel about that? im feeling in the 3rd dimension

2010-04-09T23:30:00.000-07:00

He asked to see how she was , then he regreted .

her knowledge was way too ahead from what he could perceive,

i'm just in there in 3rd dimension, i do not think anyone besides me can see it or feel it,

i have seen myself, from inside to outside and still can control that.

-in this silent , i have seen it-

It's just too much, sometimes i say that , i guees all the time, but still ,somehow i can't get rid from old habits, seems easy , in teory it is! " everything is easy as long as u want",

bullshit!

why most of time we want to believe such a bullshit, everything is easy no! it is not

we always like the most things that aren't "good" , but what is good and what is not good?

how people can dare to make a judgement about any fucking behaviour in particular?

we would live better if we could only let ourselves go by our true feelings and not by our judgements, always always our conscience, like if that helps, no it does not in the end make us to act like somebody that we are not.
*touch me in the morning, and melt my hearth at nigh*.

only if you can love, understand, feel and embrace
your loneliness you are going to able to understand something or somebody else

Morning feeling of freedom

2010-03-05T09:53:00.001-08:00

So,this morning seems that im being, inspired by something out of the blue i got a little bug in my head, a good one of course , then i thought in FREEDOM, yes! just freedom whatever you want to express it , it is freedom in the end, we all perceive our freedom with different perspectives, that is the magic of it.

* the freedom to see and hear what is here , instead of what should be, was , or will be.

*the freedom of say what you feel and think, instead of what you should.

*the freedom to feel what you feel, instead of what you ought.

*the freedom to ask for what you want, instead of always waiting for permission.

*the freedom to take risk in your own behalf , instead of choosing to be only "secure" and not rocking the boat.